Why does losing weight have to be so draining? I mean seriously, as far as exercise goes, I only have to workout for 20 minutes a day. That is not an issue for me. I can do that. It’s the food part that really kills me. In case you hadn’t noticed, I LOVE food. I love all the stuff I’m not supposed to love. French fries, burgers, pizza, chocolate. I want it. I crave it. Now when you’re trying to lose weight, all of that stuff is a big fat no no. You have to eat yogurt and granola and fruit and vegetables. I like alot of veggies with my dinner. I like alot of fruit as a snack. I do not like my whole day to be filled up with all of that boring food.

I know, I know, I can easily dress it up to make it taste better. And I do. But it is still boring. I still crave my bad stuff. I do allow myself to indulge ocassionally, otherwise I would just binge on burgers and fries one night and would be very mad at myself the next day. BUT. I am still bored. I just don’t know what to do.

I considered joining Weight Watchers, since I know a few people who have tried that and liked it, but all that calorie and point counting for EACH AND EVERY THING I eat - yeah, no thanks. I don’t have time for that crap.

I’m only 24 pounds away from my goal weight. That’s it. It’s not like I need to lose hundreds of pounds. I’m not dying here, I just want to fit into all of my old clothes again. I don’t want to look in the mirror and say “bleh” anymore. I don’t want to feel self conscious when I’m having sex with my husband. YES, I JUST WENT THERE.

I guess I don’t really have a choice though. I mean, diet and excersise is the best way to lose weight. But for those of you who say it is easy? YOU LIE. It is hard. It is annoying. I don’t want to do it anymore.

But if I want to be happy with the way that I look, I NEED to do it. I have no choice. I will just have to suck it up. Damn it.